i just looked through this old account absolutely in tears. im not really sure what to write
fuck. i miss so much of this da world so much. i miss so many fucking people. i cannt stop crying
I really grew out of all this, I didn't have interest in cats anymore and i grew out of a lot of friendships and i had no time for these groups anymore. even though i really fucking loved them at the time. they helped me develop so much it just wasnt me at all anymore
da was such an amazing growth part of my life. oh my ogd!!! what really caused me to leave was growing up and being itnerested in other things but I also had this HORRIBLE social anxiety. I lost so many friendships because I was so weird about talking and replying around the time i left da...
ANYWAYS oh my god. I just saw this piece i posted a long time ago
i used to draw so fucking much!!!!!! Like of course i still do art. its my passion, its what im doing with my life, ill never stop being an artist. but i was in such a FLOW, like i just drew all the time so fast and it was still so good. and oh my god. these comments
it just hit me so hard. you people were so fucking nice to me. im crying right now thinking about it and readign them over.
such sweet, sweet comments. I mean genuinely
nice. comments from bit121788
u made me cry and GOD IcyReflections
your comment still means so
fucking much to me. It actually brings me to tears.
my time when I was really into da was just such a lovely time where I met so many lovely people. I have so many embarrassing moments stored forever on here but STILL. I think about coming back but I have this horrible anxiety about maintaining friendships sometimes especially online. It breaks my heart because I want those friendhsips
I used to have, those people who supported me like in those comments and FUCKKKKk like in every comments section honestly. But it could never really be like that again, at least for me. Im just having so many emotions about it right noiw HA oh my god. rip me. It was just a rly nice part of my life.
But I am so inspired to draw more. Like I have a really REALLY beautiful person in my life, my boyfriend. We have a very serious relationshup and I love him more than anything and I spend most of my time with him and we're so creative together. But other times when i should be drawing im just like on my phone or some shit IDK I realize i fill up so much time with fucking WASTE. but Im going to be posting more art. this is lagging on way too long i doubt any of u have read this long
I just miss you all so much. (my sweet meeshmoose
i miss u so) I know this journal sounds so depressing but my life has been SO good recently....its been lovely. I just stumbled upon my old account and all these emotions came pouring out when i saw those kind comments from old friends. Your kindness really had an impact on me.
Thank you all for being supportive and for being kind to a soul like me.
If you still are interested in my art, you can follow me on my new account magsmunroe
Ive had it for a while but I post more to instagram under the same name!!!
ill try to reply if this gets any comments but pls forgive me if i dont for a bit
(Im sorry if this is all so sad im also listening to fake plastic trees on loop oh my GOD)
I love you all, thank you guys